The Long and Windy Road to Parenthood

Almost done with our foster care license…

vanessa — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 16:56:06 +0000

Almost done with our foster care license application Our last home visit is on Sept 10, and after that we’ll be waiting for our baby.

I dont know why I dont write here anymor…

vanessa — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 18:53:34 +0000

I dont know why I dont write here anymore. . . I guess Ive been so busy with school and life that I haven’t thought about it. Also Ive been so uninspired, nothing seems worth writing about– can you tell ive been in and out of depression. Im not sure why I have been so up and down– alot has changed– maybe Im feeling directionless!
Ive stopped going to school–for now– I was wanting to take the summer off and after 2 weeks in a brutally difficult advanced chemistry class I was easily persuaded to drop the class and take that much needed break; and with further contemplation I have decided not to return until after our family is established. Which will definitely take some time since we haven’t even had a child placed into our home, and we’re in the middle of the home licensing phase. Nonetheless, I feel like my first priority is motherhood, something Ive been chasing since 2002 ! So, in the mean time I got a part time job medical assisting and I must say that Im really looking forward to working again, something different– not to mention the extra money will be great– and I’ll be able to take maternity leave when and if I need to, not something you can do at college.
On another note, hubbie is up in Alaska working the salmon season until the first of August, not to long but life is never the same without him. I dont get to talk to him very often so, I haven’t told him about my recent life-changing decisions about school and work. We talked about it a little before he left and I did tell him that I needed a break and that I thought it would be better for our future child if I had more free time. He didnt necessarily disagree, but he wasn’t really thrilled about it either. So we will see how he does with the news.
Anyway, we have another home visit scheduled for August 5th, and I have a million foster/adopt things to check off my list, so adios for now

Although I haven’t blogged lately a lot…

vanessa — Sun, 26 Apr 2009 19:21:44 +0000

Although I haven’t blogged lately a lot has happened. Yesterday we finished our last PRIDE foster care class, and are now one step closer to parenthood. Unfortunately, we have had some bumps in the road here at home, and it has prolonged our journey. About two weeks ago I got a wild hair and decided we were going to move out of our joint living situation into an apartment. My mom and her boyfriend are being very uncooperative about getting the house ready for the home inspection and I just couldn’t take it anymore! So I thought that the best idea was to move into an apartment where we wouldn’t have to rely on anyone else to get the ball rolling. Well they were stunned and said that they needed three months notice before they would consider letting us out of our agreement. Needless to say that our home study, which was supposed to have happened on 4/21 was canceled! After I calmed down and hubbie and I talked about everything, we decided that us moving was in fact not the best option for us, so after all that we decided to stay here and try to make it work. Things have been a little better between the four of us, for now, and I’ve decided to wait until June to reschedule the home visit, I just need more time to get the house in tip top shape. We still need to move all my mom’s crap out of our extra bedroom, paint, build a wall to enclose our bedroom, and get some new area rugs. Not to mention all the baby stuff we still need! Its quite overwhelming. Plus Im not doing so well in my classes right now, Im so stressed out that I cannot focus! Life is only going to get harder! So please pray for me??

Well our first home visit is scheduled f…

vanessa — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 23:01:26 +0000

Well our first home visit is scheduled for 4/23! Thats 13 days! I spoke with our licensor yesterday and apparently our application went to the wrong department! I guess I checked the wrong box, which is easy to do because of the sheer volume of stuff you have to submit. Im understandably nervous, not to mention that I got into a little tiff with my mom the other day. She is being so difficult and inflexible. I cant start getting the babies room prepared if she doesn’t move her crap out of my space, and of coarse she gives me nothing but excuses. Ideally we would move, but we just dont have the financial resources necessary–I wish
Otherwise things are moving along well. The home licensor said that we should be licensed for foster/adopt within the next three months– barring any complications– and Im really feeling the stress. I haven’t gotten back into a routine a school and next week will consist of round one of exams, and I can’t say I’ve studied at all! I’ve just got so much else to do. How do parents get everything done?? And I don’t even have a child yet! Any suggestions??
This weekend hubbie and I have another PRIDE class so our weekend is already half gone, then on sunday we plan on going to church and spending time with some friends

Happy Easter to all

We went to our first PRIDE foster care c…

vanessa — Sun, 05 Apr 2009 18:30:17 +0000

We went to our first PRIDE foster care class yesterday. Wow, was it long and intense. But of corse its worth it Only three left to go.. we are on our way to parenthood!!

In other news, Im still sick, yep, still sick! This week has been really rough. Ive been sleeping every chance I get so that I can recover as quickly as possible, and the first week of spring quarter has proved more work than I had planned for. One of my professors is nutty, I hope I can make it through. Prayers are much appreciated

Its finally sunny here in the great NW, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Ive been sick, not super sick, but since…

vanessa — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 05:32:28 +0000

Ive been sick, not super sick, but since I only get a cold maybe once a year this feels like the end of the world! LOL . . . We started to clean out our storage area on sunday to make room for our baby that I pray is coming into our lives very soon, and today I splurged and bought a few baby items–just to lift my spirits

Also, today was the first day of spring quarter at school, typical first day, boring, unorganized, and pointless.
Blessings, good night

I was talking to my best friend this mo …

vanessa — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 08:37:28 +0000

I was talking to my best friend this morning about how I was stressed out about getting all the baby things we need for the foster/adopt program, and excitingly her mom has a really cute white shabby chic dresser for me My first baby item–well other than the truck load of baby clothes my sister gave me that I have no idea what Im going to do with– This is something I need and happen to really like–Ive admired it before at her house– God is so great, he really provides! I just need to remind myself of that when Im stressed and freaking out about all the things I need to do
So, this week is spring break for me and Ive pretty much been going non-stop, when Im in school I have no time for the details of life. People always think being a student is so great– all the free time!!– I just think what free time?? I’d like to know where it went, I want it back! NOW!! LOL
Speaking of school, Im getting ready to do some homework now. Yes, you read that right, homework on spring break. Im taking a chemistry series, so this upcoming class that starts on monday is basically a continuation of last quarter, complete with homework and all! BLAHHHH, I hate chemistry, but as a biology major with the intent of attending medical school I’d better learn to love it

I went to orientation today for the volunteer position I talked about earlier and all went well with that, boring like all orientations are, but good nonetheless. Im a little miffed that I have to go back on friday to “return paperwork” and get my PPD read. I hate driving into the city, I did it for three years straight and I hated every moment of it! Oh the road rage! LOL. . . I hope I can manage it once a week.

well thats it for now, off to do homework, and then to bed.

How am I supposed to get this house read …

vanessa — Mon, 23 Mar 2009 18:21:42 +0000

How am I supposed to get this house ready for a child! When I have no extra money?? We have to paint, lay carpet, move all of our bedroom stuff into another bedroom so that the baby can have the room with the window; and I still need to get all the baby essentials. At least when your pregnant you get a baby shower. When your doing foster/ adopt everything is so uncertain, it feel like no one can understand.
I really need help managing all of this.

I did it finals are done, now spring bre …

vanessa — Sat, 21 Mar 2009 06:45:29 +0000

I did it finals are done, now spring break is in full swing!

No news or contact from DSHS about our application, probably wont hear anything until the second foster/adopt orientation on 4/8/09.

Oh! the stress!! Yesterday was so horrib …

vanessa — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:40:08 +0000

Oh! the stress!!
Yesterday was so horrible! I had a chemistry test yesterday afternoon, like I said below, and I also had a chemistry lab report due before the exam started. Well I couldn’t figure out the lab and everyone in our study group was telling me different things, so I was getting really worked up and decided to go and talk to the teacher, by the time I got there I was a nervous crying wreck, and I just bursted into tears! Poor guy, my professor, he is this sweet little old man. Im so embarrassed. I hate not being able to control my emotions, I feel like Im always on the verge of tears. My head is so full. Full of stuff about foster/adopt, full of chemistry and math facts, all waiting to fall out! LOL
I really could use your supportive words